Remember, one step at a time. You are exactly where you are meant to be.
There will be times that your brain will try to convince you that you should be further, better, smarter. You will obsess over the future, dreaming about the things you will do. But you forget the present moment. You forget to live and experience and feel. Guess what? Feeling is what you live for. So get out of your head and into your body, into your heart and soul. Feel the moment. Feel the experience of learning and growing and doubting and fearing and loving. Feel the joyous and feel the painful. Look at the stars and remember that you are meant to be exactly here.
Here. Surrender to the discomfort. Remember, this doubt and fear and hope, all mixed into a bundle of anxiety in your chest, is the journey itself. So journey – travel throughout your entire life like a tourist, with energy and curiosity and wonder. Learn about every aspect of yourself, your mind, body, spirit, and core. And accept it all.
So, Self. Remember to slow down and experience life before you run out of it.
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”Rainer Maria Rilke
You don’t have to have it all figured out. No one does at any time. Be kind to yourself.
This is the start of another blog. I am always drawn back to the blogging process as a way of self-reflecting, expressing creativity, and connecting with other like-minded individuals. But there is always one thing that stops me eventually – fear and self-doubt. Any reader of this blog will eventually learn that I overthink everything. I need a place to express myself and connect with others, but with that comes a level of vulnerability – the possibility of having others disagree or misinterpret, the possibility of having an opinion today and it changing in a couple years but then being held to that previous opinion.
But I’m tired of living with this fear and overthinking. My first letter to myself addresses this: life and people are constantly changing and we are constantly learning. Who I am today will inevitably be different from who I am in a year or ten. The opinions and thoughts that I have today will be different in the future, and that is good, that is growth. As I experience, live, read, reflect, and learn, my thoughts and ideas will change and develop, and what was relevant for me today will not be relevant in the future. But such is life and learning.
So Self, be kind to yourself. Remember the ebb and flow of life. Keep your mind open. Learn it all and integrate it into your own understanding. Never stop learning and growing.
“a healthy person is one who can grow and learn from all experiences.”Mary Pipher, Letters to a Young Therapist